XLVIII
-Domina
.... domina....
My
personal serf’s voice, first soft, then louder, woke me up from
outside the cubiculum .mild golden sunlight coming from the
peristylium
fully invaded our room. Perhaps several hours had gone by since dawn.
Maybe too many...You were still cuddled on one side of the narrow
lectus.
I had felt you shaking all through the night, stirred by reasons
which might have nothing to do with that peculiar Epicurean dinner of
the previous evening: I well knew that your fragile stomach would
prevent you from trying sophisticated delicacies. I decided to get up
as you made yourself comfortable across the lectus
.
–Domina
....Senator
Decimus Brutus is waiting in the tablinium....He
wishes to see the Pontifex
Maximus
immediately.
What
would he want of us at this time of the day’
–Tell
him that my husband can’t go to the Senate at midday.
–My
wife... No, wait.... I’ll personally talk to him.
You
had just put on your tunic and the light sandals that you used to
wear at home.
–Girl,
go ahead and let him know I’m on my way..
–My
lord...
I
felt that my voice that my voice, though soft, was tinged with some
kind of sharpened anxiety.
–No,no,
do not talk to him... He’ll try to convince you... No...
I
made an effort to suffocate that moan which I was about to let out.
–Calpurnia...
You
did not smile but just watched me with the same look as the night
before. Distant, slightly scared, almost with worship...
–....No,
I will explain it to him. It’s me who must eventually make
decisions at any moment... Isn’t your husband the Dictator
Perpetuus?
You
had taken my face in your strong, slender, pale hands, caressing me
like you used to, long before going campaigning in the Gaul. Just
like then, touching my curls with the same care as someone running
his fingers through a small child’s locks. I opened up my eyes and
knew that you had found back that Calpurnilla
from
the early years..... I then realized that this was an occasion I
could not waste, so I ran my lips up and down your neck while
circling your thigh with my leg and pressing my breasts on your chest
until making you fall onto the lectus.
It was I who, for the first time in our marital life, had the
initiative, riding you while driving your hands to wander around that
skin of mine, full of that desire of fertility which would always
spring up those days before my menses...Despite my excitement, I was
aware of the amazement in my look, about to get lost in that
heartbeat which was speeding up through your body while you remained
below, panting in quite an usual way, louder and louder, even
indecorously....
–Domina....
–Tell
Decimus Brutus that my lord will see him in its due time!!!
That
panting scream, tinged with impatient fury, calculated to silence
your noisy rattling, certainly scared the poor girl, who was not used
to that tone at all. I momentarily thought that this was your
destiny, as I could read it in you wild eyes, alien to me that
morning. You might have died right then, swept away by some
animal-like moaning, bursting inside my womb so that your seed could
finally find a shelter there. But it would not be like this. You
remained there, lying under myself while we were sharing the same
heavy sounding breath, looking at each other in silence. I could have
kept you trapped that way until the evening...
–Calpurnia
....
That
was the deep paused voice which I had so often listened to away from
the cubiculum.
–I
must wash myself and see him....
Yes,
that voice tone had been designed to dissuade and impose things
wisely, as you had always been able to do masterfully.... I pushed
myself aside and let things go their way, still trembling with scared
pleasure under the furs which covered our lectus.
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